Struggling as a Villain

Ethan was standing inside the room he was guided to. There was an unreadable expression on his face as he stared down the window.

He was aware that everything had happened back in the academy. The death of his classmates and the other students...he was once again reminded of how weak he was to let it all happen.

He was powerless, and that's a fact. He swore to become powerful as swiftly as he could so again he doesn't face the grief of losing someone close to him. But it was nothing but a baseless oath.

His mother sacrificed herself for him. Just so Ethan could become the person she always dreamt of. Someone who helps others in need. Someone whom people could look at as a symbol of peace and strength.

However, he failed. He kept on wasting time here and there and no one was responsible for it except for Ethan himself.

He wasn't careful about his actions and allowed his steps to wander away. He received the blessings for a greater good, but all Ethan did after gaining these powers was to let himself get experimented on and allow chaos to occur.

'What a pathetic loser I am...' The wooden floor cracked under his presence, showing the emotion he currently was experiencing.

"You shouldn't be blaming yourself, Ethan." Hearing that voice, Ethan's anger surged.

Turning on his heels he found a familiar violet haired standing there with a tray of food.

"Get out before I do something which goes against my morals."

"More than ending my life, you can't do anything. And if that will make you feel relieved then I am prepared to die tonight." She said, without a speck of hesitation in her voice, as she stepped toward him.

Ethan clenched his fist, "I warn you Eleanor, stay away from me."

The violette nodded before she stopped in her tracks and rested the tray of food on the bed, before requesting him, "Please eat something, Ethan, you haven't-"

"I don't want you to care about me, Eleanor. Please." His voice shook near the end, something he desperately didn't want.

Eleanor looked at him with concern, "Ethan...*sigh* can you listen to what I have to say just this once? I promise you I will leave you alone after this."

Ethan just crossed his arms on his chest and looked away.

Eleanor took the hint that he wasn't unwilling so she began, "Ethan...numerous people died today and all because of those rampaging Ambrobates. You have seen how easily those many Bates could gather at once and you are not unaware of how many Bates are still out there, waiting for the war to begin so that they could unite with their Liege."

Inching closer to him, her voice softened, "Numerous lives have been crushed today, and millions of people would die in the war again...." Resting her hand on his shoulder, she added, "But if only the Emissary of Light stands against the Death God, so many lives could be saved. I trust in you and so do those deities."

"I don't think so..." Ethan suddenly refuted. His sharp gaze turned towards Eleanor as he said, "I don't think the deities trust me, or they wouldn't have taken control over my consciousness back then. And what about the war...why is it happening? Why don't I get an answer from them if they trust me?"

Eleanor was momentarily silence before she bit her lips and shook her head, "I cannot tell you now...but one day, you will get your answer, Ethan. The reason why we are fighting this war and why you are the chosen one. Everything would be revealed one day."

Ethan scoffed and shrugged her hand away, "Leave me alone, and next time, send someone else if you have something to say. Your presence disgusts me."

Eleanor's eyes welled up with tears as she asked, "P-Please eat the food-"

"No, I won't. I don't trust you. You might as well have put some drugs into it."

Eleanor was left stunned, standing there and staring at his back for a long time. It was the most severe punishment for her...to be rejected by the man she adores.

Ethan was everything to her. Her happiness and grief start and end with him. And if someone could have hurt her to this point, then it was him.

However, 'I am sorry Ethan...' As the silver head began to sway, she darkly muttered under her breath,

'I can't have you leave me again...' Ethan turned his dazed eyes in her direction before Eleanor went forward and held him.

"Don't...fucking...touch....me..." His voice was slurred as he tried to push her away however, under the effect of the drug, which she planted on him when she rested her hand on his shoulder, Ethan wasn't able to think anything clearly.

She dragged him towards the bed, and after removing the tray of food, she laid him gently.

"It will be fine, just let me handle things, Ethan..." She softly whispered and planted a soft kiss on his forehead.

Ethan was still murmuring something incoherently as he tried to move away but to no avail.

Eleanor slowly stripped him off his clothes, and with tears rolling down her eyes, she constantly muttered,

"Everything will be okay...."

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*RUMBLE*

Thunder crackled outside, as Elizabeth was suddenly woken up from her slumber and she instantly sat on her bed.

Her heart rate was quite high and sweat continued to pour down her forehead

She looked out of the window in a daze, not being able to understand where she was or what she was just watching in her dreams.

It was all too fuzzy.

She checked the time and there were only three on the clock.

She didn't know why, but her heart was telling her that something bad had happened to Ethan, and she could not do anything to save him.

Her heart trembled, and tears began to roll down her eyes as she assumed the worst thing was happening to him.

Without another thought, she wiped her tears and jumped out of the bed. Wearing her shoes, she sprinted out of the school and ran all the way until she reached the mansion.

She used one of her strongest spells to put the guards to sleep since she didn't want to stop until she reached her destination.

However, although most of the guards fell down, one of them jumped in front of Elizabeth and threatened her, "Take another step and you will regret trying to disturb my master's sleep."

Elizabeth could tell that the man was dangerous and she couldn't waste time fighting him so she shouted,

"RICHARD!!!!"

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A/N:- Man...Ethan is suffering.