Chapter 259: Confession
Chapter 259: Confession
In this world, what only one person knows was called a secret. A thing, if more than two people knew about it, was definitely no longer a secret.
Tao Mu originally thought that being reborn was the biggest secret of his life. Something he couldn't speak of or tell anyone, and could only bring it into the coffin. But unexpectedly..
Tao Mu swiped through the contact list, and his chest suddenly became very tight. His throat felt hot, congested, and a little breathless. In his two lifetimes, he thought he was quite clear headed, at least he knew what he wanted. But it was only now that he knew that he had muddled away through life confused.
Unwilling, resentful, unable to hold, but unable to let go. The negative emotions that had entangled Tao Mu for ten years in his previous life were like gangrene attached to his bones, winding around him once again. Tao Mu frowned fiercely while clutching his chest. Only then did he realize that he was not as relaxed and enlightened as he thought. Even though it had been smooth sailing since his rebirth, Tao Mu still hadn't let go of those things in his previous life that he couldn't touch no matter how much he begged. It was just because no one knew about Tao Mu's experience before, Tao Mu had no other choice, and couldn't find anyone to accuse and pursue an explanation, so he had to force himself not to think about it, not to care about it.
Tao Mu originally thought that this would be the case for the rest of his life. All his experiences were just an unspeakable nightmare. However, Shen Chen's rebirth once again aroused all the anger and resentment that Tao Mu had accumulated in his heart.
Li Xiaoheng, who was at work, received a call from Tao Mu. He picked up the conversation between the two when they had just been interrupted by another call: "..What, have you decided on what you want to eat?"
However, even after several long seconds passed, Tao Mu remained silent and did not speak. Only the sound of slight breathing could be heard over the receiver, and Li Xiaoheng immediately realized that something was wrong: "What's wrong? Who called just now? What happened?"
"..I want to see you." After a long silence, Tao Mu said awkwardly: "Xiao Heng, I want to tell you something. Do you have time to listen?"
Li Xiaoheng's heart sank. He didn't know what happened to Tao Mu in just one phone call. But his first reaction was to patiently appease Tao Mu: "I have time."
Li Xiaoheng closed the half-read documents, picked up his suit jacket and walked out of the office, while talking to Tao Mu on the phone: "I'll find you now. Are you tired from training recently? Why don't you take a shower and take a nap first? I'll be there soon. Wait for me."
"En." Tao Mu hung up the phone. He stood there and thought for a while, then went to the instructor to ask for leave. When Li Xiaoheng came over in the evening, he would not stay at the training base that night. According to the procedure, Tao Mu had to inform the base.
The instructor saw that Tao Mu's complexion was not very good, and thought that Tao Mu was tired from the recent training intensity. He also carefully asked Tao Mu if he wanted to go to the medical room and take a break in the afternoon. Tao Mu smiled and said no. He had an unnamed fire in his heart that couldn't be put out. The physical combat training in the afternoon was perfect enough for Tao Mu to vent. It was also a good way to let Tao Mu calm down and think carefully about how to deal with the following events.
So when it came to training in the afternoon, everyone found that Tao Mu was very serious. He was originally a martial arts stand-in, with a little kung fu foundation and good physical fitness. Basically, he was the only amateur in the entire crew who could keep up with the training intensity. However, after this afternoon, everyone was stunned to discover that Tao Mu could still be stronger. That kind of toughness that was both alpha and ruthless, it was simply pheromones overload.
In the words of the girls in the crew, he was so hot that they couldn't close their legs.
The training base of the special forces was in the next city, and Li Xiaoheng arrived at about six o'clock in the evening. Tao Mu, who had already asked for leave in advance, was waiting for Li Xiaoheng at the gate of the base.
Li Xiaoheng drove the car and saw his favorite person from a distance, leaning alone against the wall at the entrance of the base. With his head down and a cigarette in his mouth, the dim yellow street lamp shining down from overhead and enveloping Tao Mu's figure in a halo of light. Indistinctly, there was an aura of fierceness and loneliness that emitted from him.
Li Xiaoheng's heart stagnated, and he stopped the car in front of Tao Mu.
Tao Mu got into the car without saying a word, leaning on the passenger seat: "I'm hungry, let's find a place to eat first."
Li Xiaoheng was full of questions, but he could see that Tao Mu was not in a good mood. So he didn't rush to ask questions, and took Tao Mu to a five-star chain hotel opened by Fengxing Group in this city. They didn't go to the hotel restaurant to eat, but just called room service to deliver dinner to the room.
After Tao Mu received Shen Chen's call, he had an urge to confess. He really wanted to find someone to talk about his confused two lives, talk about those things he couldn't let go that may not be worth mentioning in the eyes of others, talk about how to face the reborn Shen Chen in the future, and those family members in name only. However, Tao Mu didn't want to talk about these things with Liu Yao, Meng Qi and old man Song. On the one hand, he was ashamed of his actions in his previous life, and he didn't want his family to know his muddle-headed and ungrateful side. Tao Mu was worried that once his Yao Dad, Xiao Qi Dad, and Grandpa Song knew about these things, they would feel dissatisfied and develop a barrier against him in their hearts, and would subconsciously blame him or even avoid him. So Tao Mu didn't dare to say anything.
But Tao Mu had never been the kind of person who only knew to run away. Moreover, he didn't want to let his past life experience be used by others to blackmail himalthough Shen Chen's phone call didn't reveal too much emotion, Tao Mu had been by Shen Chen's side in his previous life for quite some years, and he knew what kind of person Shen Chen was. He was a cold and indifferent hunter who could read people's hearts, and was very good at grasping the weak spots of others. Therefore, Tao Mu never believed the empty words that Shen Chen said, "well water does not encroach river water". Because Tao Mu knew that what Shen Chen understood as "well water doesn't encroach river water" referred to a situation where there was no conflict of interest with him at all. Once there was a conflict of interest, Shen Chen would never consider any family agreement, he would only seize Tao Mu's weakness and attack him without hesitation.
However, Tao Mu lived a new life and absolutely could not tolerate himself or his family being the prey in Shen Chen's eyes because of his own interests. So he had to strike first. Thinking of this, Tao Mu almost subconsciously called Li Xiaoheng. Not only because Li Xiaoheng was his lover, but also because Li Xiaoheng was his most trusted partner. Therefore, after Tao Mu learned that Shen Chen was reborn and felt a sense of crisis because of this incident, the first thing that came to his mind was to ask Li Xiaoheng to discuss what to do next.
But after Tao Mu came back to his senses, or after venting out the sudden panic in an afternoon of training, Tao Mu began to hesitate again.
The reason was the same as above. Tao Mu was afraid that once Li Xiaoheng knew all the bad and stupid things he had done in his previous life, knew that he was not as smart or as good as Li Xiaoheng thought, and everything he had was because of tje advantage of rebirth. And that in fact, he was just a mediocre person whose blood relatives wouldn't even recognize or accept him..
Li Xiaoheng must also be disappointed with him, right?
Just like the many colleagues in the entertainment industry that he had seen in his previous life, once their image collapsed, not only would the fans leave in droves, but the fans would even turn around and step on their former idol.
"I.." Looking at Li Xiaoheng, who had traveled thousands of kilometers to find him because of his words, Tao Mu hesitated for a long time, and shrank into himself a little subconsciously.
However, the rebirth of Shen Chen and the unknown factor that was Zhuo Yan made Tao Mu feel a sense of crisis and anxiety. This kind of emotion made Tao Mu unable to hide the secret of rebirth with peace of mind. He was afraid that one day, Li Xiaoheng and his family would learn these truths from the mouths of others in other places. At that time, his situation would be even more passive and embarrassing.
Tao Mu could not imagine such a situation. So after thinking about it, he decided to reveal his secrets: "..Whether you believe it or not, in fact, I was reborn in this life."
Some things, once you begin, the following words are easy to say. Almost in a mechanical tone, Tao Mu tried his best to recount the stupid things he had done in his past life with the attitude of a bystander.
Tao Mu thought that Li Xiaoheng would be shocked, would not believe it, and even thought that he was joking or that he was crazy. However, contrary to Tao Mu's expectations, after listening to his words, Li Xiaoheng just nodded calmly. In a tone of "As I expected", he directly helped Tao Mu to summarize his words: "So what are you thinking now, do you want to take revenge on the Shen family?"
Li Xiaoheng's attitude was so calm that Tao Mu was a little dazed: "What?"
"I knew for a long time that for the Shen family their interests always came first, but I really did not expect that the Shen family would be able to go this far for the sake of profit."
Watching an outsider who occupied the nest bully their own blood family, and not only did they not help out, but chose to aid in the abuse. And the reason for this inanity was simply that Tao Mu's value was not as great as Shen Yu's. Although Tao Mu was downplaying when he recalled the past, Li Xiaoheng could imagine how helpless, resentful and unwilling Tao Mu was at that time.
It was too ridiculous.
"Since the Shen family cares so much about the interests of the Shen family, and even forcing you to die for it, then we should just destroy what they care about the most." Li Xiaoheng held Tao Mu's hand: "It doesn't matter if it is the Shen family, or the one surnamed Zhuo, if they don't know anything about it, then we are bullying people by taking revenge rashly. That's why you chose to avoid them after you were reborn. Because you felt that your grievances can't be appealed. You had no way to seek justice for everything that happened to you in your past life."
"But like you said, since both Shen Chen and Zhuo Yan may be reborn, they would no longer be innocent. So us taking our revenge is also reasonable."
"What's more, since those two people could calculate you for the sake of profit, they may continue to calculate you for the rest of your life. We can't wait for the other side to take action before passively fighting back. Now Zhuo Yan has joined forces with the Yao family, and they are fighting fiercely with the Shen family. We can take this opportunity to wipe out this group of people. And also let them know that what they care about most, what they want to maintain the most, and what they want to hold on tight to the point of throwing stones, plotting and scheming, and forcing you to your death, are all just things that happen to be the last thing we care about."
Li Xiaoheng always believed that the best revenge towards the enemy was to snatch the things that the enemy cared about the most, and then discard them like worn shoes.
Coincidentally, Tao Mu thought so too. Only
Tao Mu licked his lips, and subconsciously clenched Li Xiaoheng's hand: "I thought that you would look down on me for my previous life. You would feel that that kind of me is not good at all. Besides, I thought you wouldn't believe me and think that I am talking nonsense. How can you believe me so easily?" How could you be so calm?
"I also thought that you would never tell me these things." Li Xiaoheng smiled warmly and touched Tao Mu's head: "I said before, I like you. I like your strengths and I won't hate your weaknesses. Maybe you have done something wrong, and you even look down on yourself. But in my eyes, the you who is bright and beautiful is you, and the you who is confused and down on your luck is you. Without those experiences, you would not be who you are in front of me now."
"I like you now, but I can also accept the you in the past. You don't have to worry about gains and losses in front of me at all." Li Xiaoheng said, leaned forward and kissed Tao Mu's brow lightly: "Because I love you, I love you for who you are."
It was as if the ice that had been frozen for an entire winter was melted by the warmth of spring into babbling spring water. In an instant, Tao Mu felt a shudder surge up from his tailbone and spread all over his body in an instant. Tao Mu's whole body trembled, and he couldn't help pushing Li Xiaoheng onto the sofa.
He used his eyes to trace Li Xiaoheng's handsome features. He pressed the other's slender and fiery body under his own weight, and looked at the one who was always the image of a resolute and tough CEO outside, just allow him to be pressed underneath with a warm smile, and even wrap his arms around his waist for fear that he would fall off. Tao Mu felt that his heart was about to burst, and his whole body was about to float up into the clouds.
I am so lucky. Tao Mu thought so. He couldn't help holding Li Xiaoheng's hands tightly until their fingers intertwined, and his whole person was lying on Li Xiaoheng's body. He could even hear the strong beating of Li Xiaoheng's heart, together with his own heart, it beat very fast. It was as if the drums of war had been beaten.
Tao Mu felt that just because of these words, even if Li Xiaoheng didn't like him anymore, he wouldn't let go of him obediently.
"Li Xiaoheng!" Tao Mu gritted his teeth and stared at the person under him, saying viciously, "You are done for. I am going to tear up the contract. Even if you don't like me in the future, I will not break up with you peacefully."
He would hold on to this person tightly, hold on with a death grip, and would never let go.
Hearing this, Li Xiaoheng smiled, hugged Tao Mu and pulled him down, chuckling, "That's exactly what I want."
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