Absolute Regression

Episode 90: A relationship is worse than not being close.

In fact, Hyeolcheondoma had a great feeling of disbelief until he told Geommugeuk that he would wait and see.

Geommuyang comes to see you first? Without taking care of other Mazon? That can’t be possible.

However, as if it were part of a dance performance, Geommuyang came that night.

“What’s going on with you?”

Then, Geommuyang held up the liquor bottle he had brought.

“I came here because I wanted to have a drink with the elderly. If I remember correctly, you liked this drink, right?”

“I managed to remember. “Now come here.”

Instead of letting him into the house, Hyeolcheondoma sat facing him on a large rock in the yard.

“It’s refreshing, so let’s have a drink here.”

“great.”

Hyeolcheon Doma brought Sibi a drink and a simple snack.

We met on the day Geommuyang returned, but we weren’t in a situation to look after each other at that time.

Now, for the first time, Hyeolcheondoma calmly observed Geommuyang’s prayers. Indeed, the prayer was different from when I left.

“I heard that you have overcome the magic tool wall?”

“Thanks to your concern, I passed.”

“Congratulations.”

“thank you.”

“The leader must have been pleased.”

“yes.”

Hyeolcheondoma asked various questions about the magic tool wall, and Geommuyang answered as sincerely as she could. In the past, the two used to talk about martial arts.

Geommuyang liked talking about Hyeolcheon Doma and martial arts. Strangely enough, I connected well with him.

When the alcohol was almost empty, Hyeolcheondoma spoke first.

“I came here because I wanted to ask you something. So feel free to ask.”

“Okay, then, like a man, I’ll ask without interrupting. Why did you choose your brother? “I think there must be a reason or a reason.”

“Of course there is.”

Hyeolcheon Doma thought for a moment about what to say and then answered like this.

“Your brother has the power to attract people’s hearts.”

Geommyang nodded silently.

“It has the power to attract hearts…”

I expected many answers and thought there might be answers like this. However, when she heard it in person, Geommuyang was overcome with feelings of confusion and regret.

In his entire life, he had never heard of someone being attractive to him.

“I have never felt such power from Mugeuk. Oh, I’m not saying this to disparage Mugeuk. “I’m curious about what that feels like.”

“Of course you didn’t feel it. “There would have been no reason for Lee Gongja to be attracted to you, and wouldn’t you have had the luxury of accepting your younger brother’s feelings?”

“Yes, I did.”

Hyeolcheondoma poured a drink for Geommuyang, who nodded obediently.

“You are a great warrior. “He definitely has the qualities to become a Heavenly Demon.”

Hyeolcheondoma truly thought so. Really, I would have continued to support Geommuyang if Geommugeuk hadn’t been acting like a crazy person.

“And yet you chose your younger brother, right?”

“There are times in people’s lives when they are pushed around by a sudden wind.”

“I wish I was where the wind is heading. “I want to go down this path with my elders.”

The eyes toward Hyeolcheon Doma were shining. At least at this moment, Geommuyang was speaking the truth.

“Aren’t there many other mazons?”

“no. “I really need an older person.”

“The reason is?”

Although Mabul followed him like his right hand man, deep down in Geommuyang’s heart, he preferred Hyeolcheondoma.

“Because you are someone I really need.”

He gave no other reason.

I thought that Hyeolcheondoma might have been moved by this earnestness if he had not heard from Geommugeuk that Geommuyang would be visiting.

“May I give you some suggestions?”

“to do.”

“When I become the Heavenly Demon, I will place you in the position of the First Demon.”

“Jeilmazon?”

“yes. We will create the best position among the Mazon that is recognized by the Cheonmajeon. Additionally, we will increase the size of the Namdo Bell to three times its current size. We will lift the limit on the number of demons and significantly increase support for the Namdo sect. In addition, we will open Cheonmaseogak especially to the elderly. “You are welcome to come and see it any time.”

Geommuyang knew that Hyeolcheondoma liked books. In the Cheonmaseogak, not only military secrets were stored. There were many poems and literary works that were difficult to find in the market that Hyeolcheondoma would like to see.

Considering the fairness with other mazons, it was truly an unconventional proposal.

Of course, Hyeolcheondoma was not naive enough to believe everything he said.

Later, when you become a Heavenly Demon, what will you do if you say, ‘The opposition from other Magons is stronger than I expected, so please make some concessions.’

He would even be older than he is now, turning into a toothless tiger.

“Mabul, will that person be upset if he hears it? “He must be confident that he will become the first mazon.”

Of course, Geommuyang seemed to have expected this reaction and was not embarrassed at all.

“I can’t help it. Although I respect and like Mr. Mabul, I think Mr. Doma is the most suitable person for that position. “You can tell the old man Mabul what I just said.”

It seems like he has faith that he will never say this to Mabul. Where on earth did this belief come from? Does he think of himself as such a noble person?

“I will consider your offer.”

“thank you.”

After toasting the last drink, Geommuyang stood up.

Geommuyang, who was about to leave, added the last thing.

“Elder, I will definitely become the Heavenly Demon.”

After Geommuyang disappeared, Hyeolcheondoma took something out of his mouth. It was blood liquor given as a gift by Geommugeuk. He did not completely trust Geommuyang, who brought him alcohol.

Hyeolcheondoma said to himself.

“…Yes, there was a time when I was sure of that.”

* * *

When Geommuyang returned, Mabul was waiting for him.

“Have you ever visited Hyeolcheon Doma?”

“This school is still the same. “There are no secrets.”

“What kind of secret command is it that you confidently visit in broad daylight like that? “Why did you do that?”

“I went to appease him.”

“So?”

“He said he would think about it.”

“He is a traitor.”

Mabul deliberately used the strong word traitor.

“A person who changes his mind once will change his mind again. “You know, right?”

Then Geommuyang said something surprising.

“You were drinking, and you had poisoned blood in your mouth.”

“As long as that person doesn’t go crazy!”

Compared to the angry Mabul, Geommuyang was calm.

“It didn’t seem like they were intentionally trying to hide it. “I don’t trust you,” Thomas said.

“Please do not interact with me any more.”

Even more surprising words came out of Geommuyang’s mouth.

“Indeed, I offered to give the position of First Majon to the elderly Doma.”

For a moment, Mabul was startled. It was so unexpected that I froze for a moment.

I originally thought that the position of First Majon was mine.

So Mabul waited for the next words. First of all, I said this to appease, so don’t worry about it.

But Geommuyang didn’t say that.

‘So what is it? ‘Are you really going to give it to me?’

Mabul bit his molars without realizing it. You can tell if a person is clenching their molars if you look closely at them. Moreover, how could a master like Geommuyang not know? However, Geommuyang pretended not to see anything and did not react at all.

All kinds of thoughts ran through Mabul’s mind.

Was it a mistake? Or because you are insensitive? Or is it knowingly or intentionally?

I thought that maybe they were trying to punish me for bringing in the Yunnan twins this time.

Similar things have happened in the past. The most perplexing thing about moments like this is that Geommuyang is a more intelligent and smarter person than anyone else.

So, Mabul was always confused by the thought that it might not have been just a mistake, but an action with some intention.

And this is the worst part of all:

Not being able to express these feelings.

If it were anyone else, I would have already asked directly.

Why? Are you ignoring me? Don’t do this.

But those words did not come easily to Geommuyang. Is it because I started the relationship wrong? Or is there some kind of invisible wall that Geommuyang intended to erect between him and himself?

The relationship between Geommuyang and himself is one in which he suffers alone.

A relationship is worse than not being close…

In the end, Mabul summed it up like always.

‘Yes, that can happen. ‘You’re still young.’

As an adult, I have to endure it. This is because the task he took on was to turn a energetic young man into a Heavenly Demon.

“We have to take care of our people too. “They’re all watching, too.”

You should understand that these words came after many thoughts!

Did he read Mabul’s inner thoughts?

“I don’t have much affection for other mazons.”

“What do you mean?”

“Why don’t you and Thomas come out and say who you support? But the rest of the Mazon are just watching. Will you be on the advantageous side later? “It’s so shallow.”

It would have been great if only Hyeolcheon Doma had been left out of those words. No, if he was really trying to deceive himself, he would have removed it intentionally. Being honest like this would be respecting yourself.

“But we still need them.”

“I only trust the elderly.”

Mabul and Geommuyang looked at each other and smiled.

Mabul felt relieved to some extent, but the pain in his heart did not go away.

‘So who are you giving the first mazon to?’

But in the end, neither Geommuyang nor Mabul said anything about him.

* * *

Hyeolcheon Doma came to me with a surprised face.

“You were right. The Archduke really came to visit me. “How on earth did you know?”

“This is a secret… I have the ability to see the future.”

“Seeing as how crazy you are still, I guess someone took your mind away with a spirit spell.”

I said with a smile at Hyecheon Doma’s joke.

“Didn’t I tell you? “My brother is naturally like that.”

“This time, I felt something big again.”

Hyeolcheondoma hesitated for a moment in what he was going to say. But it was something I said anyway. Indeed, given his personality, it was something he would hesitate to say.

“I realized once again what kind of person you are to me.”

“!”

I’m nervous. This was the first time that Hyeolcheondoma spoke about me in this way.

“What does it mean?”

“No matter what temptation the Grand Duke tried, I didn’t listen. As you said, he made an unconventional offer. But it didn’t move me at all.”

In my ear, I heard the door of his heart open a little more.

I was thankful for the Hyeolcheon cutting board. I was so thankful that he told me that fact.

Yes, I have to say this to understand. Everyone acts like they know everything, but if you don’t tell them, you won’t know.

I immediately pulled out my black magic sword and drew a line on the floor. And I drew a line a little further to the right than the line that Hyeolcheondoma drew before.

“Are you here now that you care for me?”

Although Hyeolcheondoma did not deny it, he also did not forget the warning.

“But you know what will happen if you do that, right?”

“What happens?”

“You will pay a heavy price. “Among the products that come with a price, the ones displayed at the front are the ones with the best results.”

Perhaps because he reads a lot of books, Hyeolcheondoma sometimes uses expressions that don’t suit him. I really like this side of him.

“I’ll keep that in mind.”

“If what you said is true, the Archduke would also visit the leader of the Pungcheon Church. “Can I leave it as is?”

“I have to leave it.”

“Will that person be as strong as me?”

“Aren’t there two people instead?”

“Two people? who? Gowol?”

“The leader of the Pungcheon Church will definitely discuss the matter with Gao Yue.”

“Do you believe in Gao Yue?”

“yes.”

“You shouldn’t trust people so easily.”

I think that Hyeolcheondoma’s wariness includes a bit of jealousy. Since I had no intention of using that jealousy to win over Hyeolcheondoma’s heart, I obediently followed his words.

“Yes, I will always be on guard. Please take good care of your elders as well.”

“Of course. By the way, do you plan to just stay there while the Archduke is wandering around like this?”

“It’s been a while since I came back, so I have to give up the lead at least once. “Let’s see how my brother turns out.”

I thought it was a good thing. My brother would put us all to the test.

“Let’s see if the ground hardens after the rain or if we end up rolling around naked in the mud.”